..It's been a while..

As I slowly become accustomed to College life once again, i am finding out that I am not content. My intercultural studies class is inspiring me to widen my worldview and see a world that is literally begging for Jesus. I have been challenged more in the past couple of weeks to read, memorize, and meditate on scriptures than I have been my whole life. I have been knocked off of my high horse and shown that I am a desperate, hopeless sinner in need of a loving, merciful God. I can not keep going at the pace I am going. I NEED HELP.
Being in school, learning under people like Dr. Wilson and Dr. Younce is so helpful...but i find that I am not completely here. My heart, mind, and body long for the day that I will be a foreigner in other lands. I want so badly to reach out and help people that being here is not making me happy don't get me wrong God deffiently has proved himself faithful in my being here. I know that this is the place i need to be at this time, but knowing that there is a world full of lost people dying daily that still have not heard about Jesus and the salvation he is freely giving breaks my heart.
I am so privileged to be here, writing on my blog proclaiming Jesus when so little people around the world have that right. I read a quote the other day in "Spiritual Disciplines for the Christian life" by Donald Whitney that I have not been able to get out of my head. He said that people in the southern United States have book cases full of Bibles, when people who have never heard the word are running around all over the world, but yet our lives and sins match up? How can this be, because the privileged and rich do not see the importance of the Bible and the power it brings. It is a mighty sword that can win any battle if practiced with enough.
Another quote from "How to be a World-Class Christian" that stuck out to me is this, " Our God is not some sort of 'Village God,' existing for our concerns alone and isolated to our worlds. He is the Lord of the universe, the God whom all will give an account, the savior who reaches out through his church to ALL who need to know his love, regardless of ethnic background, economic standing, or geographical locations...A world class perspective remembers to Focus on a global God who CALLS us onto his team!" With that being said, What kind of legacy will I leave when I am gone from this world? Will people say of me, "When she died, it was as if she never lived. She had no impact, left no legacy, and affected no lives," or will they say," She was a Christian who lived according to God's will and demonstrated her life in credible faith... She abandoned herself to God and his purposes. She gave herself to the God's world so that people who saw her life as a living illustration of the gospel. She is recognized as having been with Jesus because his imprint marked her lifestyles and actions." I hope it is the latter. I do not want to waste the short time I am here living for myself and my sinful desires, I want to accomplish, with the other believers, all that God has intended for this world, by working together with God and each other. This means we have to obey the truths revealed in his Word, but it also means a radical willingness to turn away from aspects of our culture that may be acceptable in popular opinion but that are different to the purposes of God.
I WANT THE WORLD TO SEE GOD... IF THAT MEANS DYING FOR GOD AND HIS PEOPLE THAN SO BE IT! I AM READY FOR HEAVEN, BUT OTHERS AREN'T.